so here i am in what i've been calling the mental aberration. i can't focus on anything. the world is full of hypnotic white noise and i just want to go away, not here, be anywhere, and not have to think about surviving. i flip through the screens of the internet and my gaze settles on an item from science porn on twitter. it's frozen smoke. really seriously, there's my mental aberration pictured before me, and i've never felt so covetous. maybe if i could just own it, i reasoned, as a physical thing. if i could focus all that not focussing on that block of frozen smoke? two minutes of research and i discover i can buy a block of frozen smoke for 89.50 GBP or 150 dollars canadian. i certainly can't afford to spend 150 dollars on a non-essential object. and now i live with the wanting of a thing along with the lack of focus and desiring to be somewhere else. ain't life grand?
the socially responsible part of me wants to reject the whole notion of owning things but here i am, trusting them more than people.
Wikipedia says frozen smoke was invented in 1931; surely there are cheaper version available now?
ReplyDeleteBtw, did you know it is so light you can suspend it on a flame, yet so insulating an object placed on it will not be burnt? Amazing! Now I want some too.
--Miriam